Silent Farewells

I beseech thee Silence,

Lets not take things further.

Lets not mull over thoughts again;

You are strong-headed I know

But lets not surpass this line drawn.

You have been with me 

Often as a friend, sometimes , also as my biggest foe. 

Together, you'v see me cross scores of my tragedies,

Holding me in your bosom,

You'v seen me surrender my rights,

You'v been my gaurdian when I had none.

You'v been my saint, when I needed Sanity;

You'v been my devil, when i had the mind to                          rebel.

As I lay awake with you at night,

You showed me a plethora of possiblities

You ran through my mind, The 'mirage' of tomorrow.

Silence,  I saw you as my keeper,

My safeguard.

Locked in my crib of security

You handled me like a possesive and caring mother.

But I beseech thee Silence,

Let me go today;

To stumble again and thus grow further.

Open the lock of your gates,

To let your child make small mistakes. 

Be patient with me today,

Let destiny take my hand. 

I need to ride again

Remove the fear of some falls.

I need to get wounded,the path is dangerous I know;

Like a patient mother, see me go through Life,

Let me learn my possibilities.

You are my protector and 

When my end comes,I'l crawl back to you forever.

But lets bid farewell for now, Silence;

Lets not take things further

Let me make life cherishable, loving it

And blundering across my way.

Wait for me SILENCE........... I'l come to you again !

- Jaya

Horizons

Tonight we send our loved ones, to where we thought they had already gone. 

It seems like a detour,an embarrasing wrong turn.

But the truth is, you never knew where they were going;

We pretended we did and that made us feel better.

But every path leads to the unknown

Some paths drawing others, and some split off on their own. 

We want to know where they all gobut maybe we shouldn't;

Maybe the more we insist on knowing the less we will be able to learn from life's twist and turns.

I know what you are thinking;that the unknown is SCARY !!

But thats ok; we'r humans

Maybe before we feel Free we are supposed to feel Fearfull.

So lets say Goodbye now and remember 

That no matter what we are feeling 

there is no Shame, none at all.

Movements between silence

I am standing by the River, still trying to decipher the movement of the tide.I keep calling to it and then step into the water and then back again. I had thought I could unravel it, but it had too much depth. 

Your water has always made me feel home, yet the depth scares me till now. Maybe I was not destined to decode it, or maybe it was not in the mood of opening up to me.

 Still I try to search, yet till today the search is on. I look inside me, and then at it. No answers yet!

Once it was the sole existence of my life, the heart and soul of my meanings.I forlonly remember the moments, when I blindly but happily stepped into the depths. Maybe it was foolish, yet it had comforted me then. 

The waves lapping up against me, the air rushing through my hair, the feeling of peace.

It was then my victory and now my ultimate doom.

Yet the bond was always unbreakable. 

Now I wish to be bereft of the memories, the tears, the unfulfilled wishes, the laughter, the peace i felt standing besides you shore. Your shadow still pulls me.

Sometimes I think of the moments gone by, but acceptance should be the strength of man. 

So be it with me. I accept that you have run through my town, moving on to newer places, you will see lots in life. 

So now you run through your course and i will run though mine.

And these movements between silence will be the memories of the different paths we chalk out.

So i bid Adieu !