Life is what we make it?
is it molded by the people we meet and depart away from? Or is life just a simple culmination of thoughts and the subsequent proceedings we make upon those.
Is it simple or is it the toughest call god makes us take?
we all have thought about things and experiences we are dished out, be it love, be it gratefulness or be it sheer betrayal, there is a lot we have to make decisions about.
Possibly this chaos is what takes us over the brink,
possibly at times we just need to lay down and close our eyes and ears to this noise.
Possibly, changes are what 'regular' means.
Possibly we should be prepared to give up something and get something n return.
I know the idea is weird, trying to generalize emotions and losses like this, yet to come back, everyone has to make up some story.
May be this is the story I have for now.
Maybe knowing that it will get better than the hurt of today, maybe having this hope will ease me out of the dis-comfort.
Life will take care of itself, I just have to be resilient
:)
6/30/10
6/29/10
i hope this is heaven, because i just don't understand me any more (( for now )).
hope and heaven - juxtaposing or a culmination?
I hope this is my another chance, because i want another chance. would you give me another chance?
Iv got problems, ((but so does everyone)) but still i hope for another chance.
hope and heaven - juxtaposing or a culmination?
I hope this is my another chance, because i want another chance. would you give me another chance?
Iv got problems, ((but so does everyone)) but still i hope for another chance.
6/27/10
Life in a Love.
Escape me?
Never—
Beloved!
While I am I, and you are you,
So long as the world contains us both,
Me the loving and you the loth,
While the one eludes, must the other pursue.
My life is a fault at last, I fear:
It seems too much like a fate, indeed!
Though I do my best I shall scarce succeed.
But what if I fail of my purpose here?
It is but to keep the nerves at strain,
To dry one's eyes and laugh at a fall,
And baffled, get up to begin again,—
So the chase takes up one's life, that's all.
While, look but once from your farthest bound,
At me so deep in the dust and dark,
No sooner the old hope drops to ground
Than a new one, straight to the selfsame mark,
I shape me—
Ever
Removed!
6/26/10
lessons just dont stop
today has been a strange day.
with every passing moment, i learned something new.
and right now at a freakish 3 in the morning I realized yet again
I am a fool.
at the end of all the kicks and craps, we humans cant let go of this damn stupid thing called
'expectation'
What a load of crap
(friends would be there to offer you a shoulder
your ex would be a decent enough human being to say a good word (after all the time)
'people' you care about would at least care enough to know when they hurt.)
but as it turns out
thought of this hour,
expectations are bull-shit
because no matter whom you stood for, no matter how much you love/d a person
bottom line, at the end it turns out to be selfishness which wins
bottom line, its all the fun and frolic which is ever accounted for.
bottom line
love stands for no meaning.
men and women want all the happiness and sunshine, but step one toe out of the line
and then love stands no meaning.
time to go, time to move back into the shell.
time to quit their facades.
with every passing moment, i learned something new.
and right now at a freakish 3 in the morning I realized yet again
I am a fool.
at the end of all the kicks and craps, we humans cant let go of this damn stupid thing called
'expectation'
What a load of crap
(friends would be there to offer you a shoulder
your ex would be a decent enough human being to say a good word (after all the time)
'people' you care about would at least care enough to know when they hurt.)
but as it turns out
thought of this hour,
expectations are bull-shit
because no matter whom you stood for, no matter how much you love/d a person
bottom line, at the end it turns out to be selfishness which wins
bottom line, its all the fun and frolic which is ever accounted for.
bottom line
love stands for no meaning.
men and women want all the happiness and sunshine, but step one toe out of the line
and then love stands no meaning.
time to go, time to move back into the shell.
time to quit their facades.
Thank You :(
What 'happened', 'happens'. So i love to lie now, and break hearts! :)
I heard you saying the 'blog' shall set you free, yes it did.
Go blog the sorrows, i love it this way!
[Possibly blogging couldn't set me free
Hope this would.
And hope that all what the page showed me, translates to freedom.
I wish to end this right now, after the 'above'
Cruel!
and hope that now 'the lines go dead']
:-|
and forever I wish to remember these lines.
Forever.
I heard you saying the 'blog' shall set you free, yes it did.
Go blog the sorrows, i love it this way!
[Possibly blogging couldn't set me free
Hope this would.
And hope that all what the page showed me, translates to freedom.
I wish to end this right now, after the 'above'
Cruel!
and hope that now 'the lines go dead']
:-|
and forever I wish to remember these lines.
Forever.
cant understand.
Sometimes, explanations are never the way
Because towards the end it would all sort out.
And a time will come
when your beliefs will again change,
because we all are full of randomness.
This delinquent symphony we string along
this masochistic game you are so used to play.
And a time will come again when your know-hows will have to change
And then you will understand the depth of your deeds.
Because towards the end it would all sort out.
And a time will come
when your beliefs will again change,
because we all are full of randomness.
This delinquent symphony we string along
this masochistic game you are so used to play.
And a time will come again when your know-hows will have to change
And then you will understand the depth of your deeds.
6/19/10
The Story!
All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I've been
And how I got to where I am
But these stories don't mean anything
When you've got no one to tell them to
It's true...I was made for you
I climbed across the mountain tops
Swam all across the ocean blue
I crossed all the lines and I broke all the rules
And baby I broke them all for you
Oh because even when I was flat broke
You made me feel like a million bucks
You do and I was made for you
You see the smile that's on my mouth
It's hiding the words that don't come out
And all of my friends who think that I'm blessed
They don't know my head is a mess
No, they don't know who I really am
And they don't know what I've been through like you do
And I was made for you...
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I've been
And how I got to where I am
But these stories don't mean anything
When you've got no one to tell them to
It's true...I was made for you
I climbed across the mountain tops
Swam all across the ocean blue
I crossed all the lines and I broke all the rules
And baby I broke them all for you
Oh because even when I was flat broke
You made me feel like a million bucks
You do and I was made for you
You see the smile that's on my mouth
It's hiding the words that don't come out
And all of my friends who think that I'm blessed
They don't know my head is a mess
No, they don't know who I really am
And they don't know what I've been through like you do
And I was made for you...
6/18/10
random
Just a typical day when you go through your collection of notes and lines and letters and poems. And then you find some lines which touch you the most.
Extract- April 26th 2008
"You know i miss you kiddo and how much i love you.You make me feel loved, you make me feel safe, but more importantly, you make me feel wanted. Something that I hadn't felt in a very long time. We both knew ur friendship would grow right from the very first day we spoke. But, neither one of us could begin to imagine the love we both feel, not exploding or thundering into our hearts, but just slowly growing into a beautiful relationship that only you and I can understand.
We don't even need to be together, we are never apart.
You are my soul mate, my best friend, my inspiration, my love."
Extract- April 26th 2008
"You know i miss you kiddo and how much i love you.You make me feel loved, you make me feel safe, but more importantly, you make me feel wanted. Something that I hadn't felt in a very long time. We both knew ur friendship would grow right from the very first day we spoke. But, neither one of us could begin to imagine the love we both feel, not exploding or thundering into our hearts, but just slowly growing into a beautiful relationship that only you and I can understand.
We don't even need to be together, we are never apart.
You are my soul mate, my best friend, my inspiration, my love."
6/15/10
6/14/10
cheshire cat
Mundane.
and Fabricated.
Thats what it becomes once you start making choices which take you to a path so different from the plan.
Maybe its good to have a plan, a map work of what you deem important and parallel to your thoughts. Or may be a plan simply constricts the possibilities.
I oscillate between the questions. And sadly I have time to kill.
and Fabricated.
Thats what it becomes once you start making choices which take you to a path so different from the plan.
Maybe its good to have a plan, a map work of what you deem important and parallel to your thoughts. Or may be a plan simply constricts the possibilities.
I oscillate between the questions. And sadly I have time to kill.
6/11/10
:-)
Jumped off a 20 feet cliff into The Ganga waters, this weekend.
never before, did i feel this rush.
Free Fall rocks!
never before, did i feel this rush.
Free Fall rocks!
6/1/10
My June
Today has lasted all this while, random hazy collection of thoughts have come and gone by.
But as the summer sun climbs the zenith, so does this pride, so does this want.
Could become the star, could become the moon,
the world is all for my today.
The beauty of June lies in its innocence, its grace and its almost not-there feel.
And the peaceful heart realizes
A lot has gone by,
people whom you stood for, were simply another mirage.
but lets leave it now.
Because, as you stand alone, alone yet powerful in your simplicity,
Its then that life starts the show only for you.
its then that it all unfolds
Yet again,
No one else's dream
I am ONLY 'my' Reality
And thats the real beauty of this June day !
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