Song of 3 Months!

Then- Sundar sundar
vo haseena badi sundar sundar
mai to khone laga uske nashe mei bin peeye bekha


Now- Ek din usse bhula doonga mai
Uske Nishan mita doonga mai
Chahinga na mai uss patthar ko
Ja usse bata de!

I lost but at least I didn't lose the lessons!
With great tragedies, come the biggest lessons,
with the fall of great stories, comes the pain,
but when the pain recedes, its then that the lessons arise form the ashes.

(Could have, would have, should have!)
Turns out this big change we thought would come,
did come, just as a storm which blew all apart.
Turns out, my definition of ever lasting happiness
was just a bit jumbled up.
Some Logical error out there.

I am confused, and at times there is nothing I am more sure about.
Was this a mirage, was it a futile trace of my dreams.
Was it the birth of new thoughts,
Or was it the happiness of life?

I am Confused, yet at times there is nothing i feel more sure about.
A day today, another day tomorrow.
everyday is a random hazy collection of memories,
every single day is the trip to make it all right.

loL.

In love
Out of love
DAMN love!

another day..

In a different surrounding once again, and the change I feel around is what makes me go on after the debacle. I talk to myself, or may be I talk to you. I tell you what I feel each moment, I tell you what it felt like when you were there with me. I tell you how wonderful our togetherness was. And strangely I feel happy for the moment, but then the realization sinks in again.
Things go around, and (they say) come back again. Life moves on, as for you, so for me. But this transition is the hardest, and words are all I have.
But as in life, so has this taught me lessons. Lessons which are too diverse as of now, to be thought out rationally. Its the moment when you feel all too much, and try to run away from these realities. But as in life, so have these realities a tendency to pull you back.
For each moment we have lost, for each moment we could have had, for each moment that we stay apart..
For all the happy times, for all we had had,
Its all right.

I may fudge this up, I may mess this through and through.
No more advices to be heeded.
In thought, in action, in my very own way, guess it can be done.
may be or maybe not,
but why go for a no show?
?
It can be done,until i am proved wrong .. i suppose i have to go for it.

Last Conversation:
She said-But I still love you
He said- I really need to go and smoke.



Some Endings-
Just PRICELESS..!

need a dream to carry on the monotone. need a reason to start the dream.
need to believe to dream.
leaving the comfortable, the known, in search of the new.

Be cryptic, Love Cryptic.
Be Fabulous, Live Fabulous.

Resolve.Resolved.

Its morning, rather a very late version of morning. and life is as peaceful as it can be. Im back to my love, my one true love. I write again, and that's as happy as it can get.
And now I feel it all- I dont know what I knew before, but now I know I want to win this war.

Now I know that this is what life has to be, full of what I want to do. This is what life should be- having a reason to smile thinking of tomorrow. This is what it can be, a journey I cant wait to herald upon.
Another learning curve is done for, now I wait for the break.
It will get better, it will get really better as soon as im done surviving this free fall. And then I decide, I wont hide, wont regret.
Lets Change from small plans to big ones(saner ones)

Change
Change
Cryptic Change.
Wings are wide.
The truth lies
The truth lied
And lies divide

Not anymore- Flabbergasted.

Love [never] remains the same

The night has gone, and so has the loneliness. The day brings with it, a new resolution, a will to fight all the odds you lay against me. It was yesterday when I woke up with a start and finally realized what its been like for the past months. Not a great feeling, but at least the numbness has been shaken off.
Today silence surrounds my being, yet a feeling is there. Injustice. And it reverberates the air. Anger streaks through me, and then its all silent. Now you've pushed me towards mis-trust once again, yet again, I change my beliefs.
Its not you- you can never be so powerful, I'll never let you be that powerful. Its me who will mold myself once again, this time to the heights you can never reach in your lifetime.
Weakness. This is for you. I'll never let you invade my soul.I'll feel, I'll work this out, and I'll become someone you never imagined me to be. The goodness stays inherent, yet its something which i think should be hidden.
You will never be the reason, because after all the trials you've put me through, after all the anger trooping down me, the fights and the love we've been through, the loneliness you've put me through, I decide to forgive you your weaknesses.

The wrongs you did to me, I forgive them, because the memory of your rights still warms my heart. Your selfishness killed me, but somewhere down the road of resurrection- its your past kindness which helped me feel my worth.
Finally your charades are over- at least you are true to yourself if not to me. As you have chosen your path, I turn my back on to you and take mine. The path has diverged, I know my sins, but do you??
I believe in retribution, so when will you pay??
if we ever meet again 'weakness'- know that i'll turn my back to you, as you have done to me.
I forgive you for your hardened heart, I forgive you for this pain you put me through, I forgive you for your misguided direction, I forgive you for our broken dreams, I forgive you for the perpetual wait. Its your life, live it, find your second heaven- because what you had was our heaven- our lost heaven. I put a lock on its gates today, and walk away.
Weakness thy name is Love.
Gavin Rossdale was wrong- Love never remains the same.

Iv run enough, and iv got acceptance now. I hold the thought in my heart, and let the feeling run wild through my system. Iv chastised myself for being the Fool yet again. But im done doing that. Time will tell what we were, time will tell what we lost!