The night has gone, and so has the loneliness. The day brings with it, a new resolution, a will to fight all the odds you lay against me. It was yesterday when I woke up with a start and finally realized what its been like for the past months. Not a great feeling, but at least the numbness has been shaken off.
Today silence surrounds my being, yet a feeling is there. Injustice. And it reverberates the air. Anger streaks through me, and then its all silent. Now you've pushed me towards mis-trust once again, yet again, I change my beliefs.
Its not you- you can never be so powerful, I'll never let you be that powerful. Its me who will mold myself once again, this time to the heights you can never reach in your lifetime.
Weakness. This is for you. I'll never let you invade my soul.I'll feel, I'll work this out, and I'll become someone you never imagined me to be. The goodness stays inherent, yet its something which i think should be hidden.
You will never be the reason, because after all the trials you've put me through, after all the anger trooping down me, the fights and the love we've been through, the loneliness you've put me through, I decide to forgive you your weaknesses.
The wrongs you did to me, I forgive them, because the memory of your rights still warms my heart. Your selfishness killed me, but somewhere down the road of resurrection- its your past kindness which helped me feel my worth.
Finally your charades are over- at least you are true to yourself if not to me. As you have chosen your path, I turn my back on to you and take mine. The path has diverged, I know my sins, but do you??
I believe in retribution, so when will you pay??
if we ever meet again 'weakness'- know that i'll turn my back to you, as you have done to me.
I forgive you for your hardened heart, I forgive you for this pain you put me through, I forgive you for your misguided direction, I forgive you for our broken dreams, I forgive you for the perpetual wait. Its your life, live it, find your second heaven- because what you had was our heaven- our lost heaven. I put a lock on its gates today, and walk away.
Weakness thy name is Love.
Gavin Rossdale was wrong- Love never remains the same.
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