Nothing grieves more deeply or pathetically than one half of a great love that isn't meant to be..

I never thought i could become your 'loneliness.' and sitting here, where all is new n yet so familiar, the knwledge is a shock! The fool is who still believes and the fool is I. Trying each day to become a 'wise man' like u. May the 'fun' last for u, may the smoke and charm be forever. May u sin as u want to, may there b no 'looking back' for u. Doesnt seem, so no fear there.The fool hits the hardest, and shatters the best! Cheers to ur living it the way u want to. May the dreams persist.

time for goodbyes (all over again)

I feel at loss right now. Every thing, every moment, every happiness, I leave here.
Maybe to come back, possibly never to come back. Every time we fall, we learn to hope again. So did I. And so will I. Because I'm leaving every moment here, in this place. Starting over again? Is it possible? Possibly no.

Because, learning from your mistakes, makes you a better man (woman in my case).Every time I hit the bottom, what makes it worth is the lessons I learn. What makes it worth is the true face of people I see, people I consider(ed) my own. What makes it worth is that never again in my life, shall I go back on the same mistakes. Because when this time I hit the bottom, every person around me, made it worth the hurt. Because this time I hit harder than before.
I am not any kind of martyr, I am not the forgiver. I am no longer the friend, no longer the foe. I am no longer the love, no longer the hate. Because this time I hit harder and possibly beliefs were broken (in place of bones).

Iv been living with a shadow overhead
Iv been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
Iv been lonely for so long
Trapped in a past
I just cant seem to move on!

There are moments when I don't know if its real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I cant make it through without a way back into love!



Thank 'You' for this.
It made me hope again :)

In life only one thing is certain, apart from death and taxes. No matter how hard you try, no matter how good your intention you are going to make mistakes. You, are going to hurt people and you are going to get hurt.
And if you want to recover, there is really one thing you can say "I forgive you."
Its good advise but its not very practical.
When someone hurts us, we want to hurt them back. When someone wrongs us, we want it to be made right. Without forgiveness, old scores are never settled, old wounds never heal.

And the most we can hope for is, that one day we will be lucky enough to forget the hurt!

some days, some moments are just a piece of 'every days.' They seem to have no impact on the regularities of our high-strung lives. They come and go away just in a blink. They leave us, they give us small tit-bits to remember and then with that same peacefulness they walk away.
These are the days which make no great expectations from us, these are the days when you don't feel the wrath of time, ticking away.

Such days, give us time to cherish the days gone by, these are the days which help re-collect and make plans.
On days like today, just lie back and smile, because whats gone was never meant to be, and whats coming, you can never be prepared for it.
Lie back and put that music on, get that bed ready to keep dreaming on. Because whats here today is what matter.

make a plan maybe, get dressed maybe, put that smile today.
because on days like today, I think it will be just all right!