Unknown and overrated

After a long deep slumber, something woke me up. It was as if thousands of emotions were crawling on top of my heart. It was something of a jolt. Sitting in a corner of thr room I knew I had to think of my next course of action. What was going on, my heart said. My mind had no answers. Sleep should freshen up the soul, the body, but here i was as confused as ever. What is the point of living the regular, wasnt it all about living the dream? I needed to believe in myself soon enough! Simply living I knew was out of point.
Something had been crawling all over my thoughts, I hardly knew what to do, whom to turn to. There was this humming want in the background to unchain myself and turn back to my roots. The deep seated desire to look back to whatever I had held, who ever I had called mine even if just for moments. It was as if my end was about to come. The lack of smile in my day to day ongoings, I knew my heart had been somewhere ripped apart. Its just that the pain had maybe deadened me enough already. Why couldnt I see the sunshine, why was it that whatever I wanted came to me and then went away. Was I trying too much or too little. Was no one able to understand the real me?

As I woke up with a start that night, I knew something was not right. It was like you wake up from a terrible nightmare, you look around and you find yourself alone. That huge want of finding yourself hugged by someone who loves you dearly.. the void when you look around and see that you are all alone. Family loves me, but I knew that they were too far away to fill the gap. As I sat in the corner of the room waiting for morning to come, I thought about the millions of truths and lies I had seen in the eyes of people. I shivered till the sun came up. The happiness that came with the rising slowly and bitterly also went away. All I wanted to do was to curl up in a ball and sleep my wounded heart. Wounded, yes thats what this irritating hum in my heart it. As soon as I find hope, the over-ratedness of hope starts to pinch me. For whatever its worth, tomorrow is another day!