As I see it

What we are, at times it is defined more by the people we have met and lost rather than time.

I write today to a dying friendship, living only in memory now. I write to finally mourn emotions which made sense a long time ago.

The biggest changes of life creep up to you silently. One fine day you stand looking at the vacant spot where your castle once stood. There are people who once defined your visions of life. Every plan seemed incomplete without them. And one fine day, here you are leading the paths, a sole bearer of your burdens.The mistakes we make, the choices we choose, the decisions we take and the people we stand by .. everything is a dot on your road map. Only when the dots finally connect, it is then that you see the bigger picture.

I am a believer in making mistakes, learning from them and living them. And I stick by the desicions which I have taken. Each may not be the wisest but each path I choose has made me wiser and giving my search a new direction. Everytime I faltered, I have understood whats not for me. I have been quiet at everything silently validating acts. And now I make a conscious desicion to avoid negativity. Rather to abhor it.
But no matter what facades you errect, no matter what lines you speak, no matter the good or bad, when you lose important people of your life, the heart most often breaks. I think I have had enough of that. I felt the need to change my notions once more, but I realise that its the people who always had to be changed. The notions were right. notions still make sense. Now people dont make sense to me.

Current status: Replacing Visions with notions. And replacing my old self finally. I think I have had enough..