I want something new, something different, I want to break this losers streak i seem to suffer from some time! Its not about anything particular, I just miss realizing the dreams which i set for myself, i miss that feel of winning, i miss that satisfaction of a job well performed.

Maybe i'll learn from the mis-haps,and the not-so-mishaps.Maybe its just an empty feeling which makes me wish for new year today.Or should i dream less, be prepared for all eventualities, Life makes us all a cynic, atleast me- im a proven one. I prove time and again, that no matter what happiness i get, il be in this state-till when, i have no clue. 

No im not berating myself or my life or even Life in its whole. im just berating the downs one faces when dreams dont come true- when u stand as a man/woman who knows that the beginning has yet not started.

My time still hasnt come but it feels so long since iv lived :)

"Don't know what I was looking for when I went home, I found me alone

 And sometimes I need someone to say, "You'll be all right. What's on your mind?"
 But the water's shallow here and I am full of fear, and empty handed after two long years

 Another sunny day beneath this cloudless sky

 Sometimes I wish that it would rain here
 And wash away the west coast dreaming from my eyes
 There's nothing real for them to see here "