I'm scared shit right now, and that's not the only thing bugging me. 

my mind is in loopholes, angry, sad, petulant.everything going ping-pong at full speed.I have some things to do now, some liabilities/work which has to be fulfilled,yet my mind is not at a stable zone right now. And its my fault today. I was the one who stepped too ahead to search for what was never there.So if im feeling restless, i cant help it!

 i know what i want, i know my decisions finlly proved me right, but the feeling that something went wrong at my hands, rather something didnt turn up the way i assumed, is there. I faced this big detour, just when i thought it would all go fine. And i dnt want to face it again, ever.

So if this worry because of a multitude of reasons,is troubling me, i guess il have to give it some time to subside and return myself to the place where i had finally placated it to be.

-Mishka